Hey girls I'm 23 years old the last festive season which was December 2017 I got employed as fixed term worker which is an 1 month contract so I used a bus to travel to work that's when I met this guy claiming to see mee mostly at our hood terminus bit didn't pay much attention coz according to my previous love relationship experience love was just not for me I mean I keep trying bt boys always fails me so then this guy asked for my number I refused to give it to him but we kept on seeing each other chatting and stuff bt one Sunday we met at a bus station we were both waiting for a bus home we chatted exchanged numbers because it happened dat he doesn't live far from my home besides that I really needed someone to walk with in the morning as it is not safe in my hood so dat was it he would call in the morning then we walk together to the terminus coz we were taking the same bus we ended up dating it felt so good bt I feared for my life for another heartbreak bt I talked to him about it he promised he loves me and I felt dat he really cared for me I guess I was desperate for love to have my own boyfriend we then made love the other I would come back from work to his place then we would wake up and go to work together everything felt so good and perfect until the other day there was a braai then one of the tenants the other girl asked me do I really love him? I was so lost then I told her yes she then told me not to be too serious about him I will get hurt at the end and they liked me saying I'm a nice girl and stuff I tried to confront him the following asking him what did the person dat told me dat mean bt I didn't say who he acted so surprised and lost and he told me I mustn't listen to everything people will be saying to me and stuff coz most girls wants him they just jealous I was so drunk in love I believed him turns out he is staying with a girl but she went to give birth so she went home bt she will come back i then searched his place and found a girls clothes i was mad he told me they broke up bt didnt want anything to do with him he then called me begging me to do a pregnancy test which i did and it was positive then i told him the results he never showed intrest since then and im also Hiv positive he blocked me on whatsapp and moved from where he was renting bt sometimes he calls and ask about the baby i dont know what to do he is now back with his girlfriend but when he feels like calling me he does i told my mom everything she is my motivator and keeps on encouraging me to be strong im so hurt i cry so much at night when i think about it my mom wont ask why she would just comfort me and tells me she will always be there for me bt why me guys why such bad things happens to me

March 20, 2022, 8:56 p.m.